Would you want a note?

I want to sit here and tell you how selfish suicide is. How unbelievably awful it how, how hurtful, how mean and how rude. I can say that, but to the person whose mind is in such disarray where they feel they want to end their life, it is not a selfish act. It is simply an escape from the hurt, the heartbreak and the wrong of the world. It is the easy way out. It's the way where one can take away the feeling of being lost in a big world, with no one to rely on. I wonder why we are so quick to judge. When someone kills themselves, it isn't to punish the ones around them, it is their way of showing what has been happening that no one has realized. It is their way of opening up a can of worms, and in the same way setting themselves free of it. Studies show that 4 out of 5 people that try to commit suicide showed significant signs of depressions, but no one realized it until after they committed suicide. Not that I'm saying suicide is someones fault, as I believe it is no ones but could their be something we can do to change this?
I look back into the times in my life where I feel I was at the lowest. I see myself sitting on cement steps crying alone at 11, appearing to be a child but with the experience of an adult. I remember hating my life, and only wanting to end it. I remember cutting myself to cure the emotional pain, I remember thinking that things would never change, that I would never change. That was a more than real suicide thought. Laying in bed at a mental hospital after having my stomach pumped, I still didn't have a will to live. Now, I think about this and get goosebumps. How could I have felt like this, I was just a little girl.
The reason I am bringing this up is because I saw an episode of intervention where the mom of a suicidal drug attic said she wouldn't want a suicide note, because it was a just going to be a blame game, and that it would taunt her until she died. I couldn't help but disagree with this in a way, then I started to think would I want a suicide note if one of my loved ones killed themselves? Would I want an explanation? Or would I be better off trying to move on without one? Would a suicide note bring more demons then reasoning, or would it help me to understand the issues I clearly missed? I'm not sure how I would react. I hope I never have to face a problem like that, but I do hope that I can take a look around me and recognize whats going on. I hope that I never become to consumed with myself that I let someone deteriorate right in front of my eyes.