Is fat the new fab?

As a bigger girl, I tend to enjoy seeing plus size models winning prestigious modeling shows such as America's Next Top Model, and The Fiercely Real modeling contest. But lately, It seems like I have been seeing plus size models everywhere, just as much as I'm seeing regular models. The other day I was watching Tyra, and she said something that really interested me. She said "2010 is the year of the plus size woman." That day, she had all of the woman wear their size on their shirt. It was so hard for me to think that maybe for once, plus size is being accepted as beautiful, because in a way I don't think it is. I'm big, and I don't think I'm beautiful. I wont lie, I look at woman that have tight abs, tight arms, and tiny thighs as gorgeous. Yes, I tend to like a little bit of a curve in the "lady lump" areas is beautiful but that doesn't stop my mind from thinking that skinny is hot. Skinny and hot is everywhere-or is it?
When I'm out shopping is when I become the most aware of my size. I look at a pair of jeans that are 11's, and think they will fit. I run into the fitting room excited just to struggle to pull them up, and then after they are up the button is tight that I know I would never be able wear a slim fit shirt with it without looking like a stuffed sausage. So I go out of the fitting room, and hunt again just to discover that there is no size 13. It hurts. To wonder if people are judging you for your fat, or if men are put off by your strapless dress. I see cute little shirts that I would love to wear but know that I couldn't pull it off and certain styles that I know would look terrible on me. I think to myself that I am held back by my size. But whose to say that not everyone is held back by their size. As a proud worker in the retail industry I see all types of body sizes. 1) I see woman who are so skinny, even the double zero doesn't look right. 2)I see girls that are so tall, they cannot wear any of the jeans we sell because they ride up to their ankles. And now I know. We are all held back by our body in some way. I learned that the average size for woman in America is 14. I also learned that men don't so much as look at your size, but how you wear your clothes. Shielded with this information, can we all look hot and fabulous? And when did looking hot become all about size? Anyone can wear a black dress, but who can accessorize it with hot pink earrings and sexy pink belt? Who can find hot shoes to wear with a sexy pair of skinny jeans? The fabulous girl can. And the fabulous girl can be any type, short and fat, tall and fat, skinny and athletic, skinny and frail. Maybe this is a new start for everyone. A new way of accepting every body type as beautiful, in our own way despite how the media portrays it. Big can be beautiful. And so can tall, and all the other millions of body types.