All-Nighter?

lets sit down
and let me keep this shit real
I'll dig deep
and start to tell you how I really feel
From the start I always felt like we were straight
then the start slowly turned into fate
one two three
everything i loved was lost
it would have been fine
until i drew that line
that you just simply crossed
i wanted so bad for you to know i was there for you
All the shit that Ive been through, and i just wanted to be there for you
Seriously i hope you know i cared for you
i let my emotions go bare for you
i opened up
i let you in
And in the end i know I let you win
And you know what that's okay
I choose battles in a cautious way
I'm not gonna just give away
years of friendship
and then tell you it was all a waste
I'm not fake
I'll tell you to your fucking face
that what you said
creeps up and fucking invades my brain
i guess your right
were not the same
I could never do to you what you have done to me
because my heart is full of pain
not straight brutality
i just wish you would have seen my eyes
after fifty thousand cries
the pieces that shattered at my feet
maybe I'm still asleep
nope, pinch me
this shit ain't no dream
I don't know what God has planned for me
but i know when he calls on me I'm gonna be ready
I wont allow myself to drown in my tears
that's one of my fears
I'm starting to see you crystal clear
its a two sided mirror
one side was hidden
until you let it appear
I saw inside you to all the black
I saw that stone cold heart with a tiny crack
I heard the lies you said were true
And you complain that people don't like you
It's a little thing known as virtue
If everyone only knew
The kind of shit i did for you
saddest part
i was just another person to you
Your the one that made it into a race
but you slowed your pace
And when I came out on top
i never rubbed it in your face
You still could never take the competition you created
because the second you hit the start
I'm already crossin finish
Its called effort
maybe you should try it sometime
add in a little more try
and a little less whine
you do it because you have to
i do it because i want it
Think about it
I got the job and you didn't
don't get me wrong
it never crossed my mind until you said it
hmmm, someones jealous
but even through that
i still stood by your side
when you needed a friend
i was your ride or die
But I guess to you
all i did was stand in your way
keep using that excuse, even though it sounds lame
oh but I'm gone now
and i still don't see a change
Try working hard for the small things that you get
try having your life turned upside down
and having to start over again
let me put about 1/3 of my childhood in your head
try going a week without being fed.
why don't you cry on the couch like i did at ten
and listen to your mom scream
while a new guy bashes in her head
yeah i remember
i still feel the pain
when i forced out the anger
only ambition remained
i didn't let it become the reason
for what I've done wrong
i let it become the reason
for why I've stayed strong
if theres a will theres a way
you've added a brick
to the wall that you broke
i now have doubt
in every word that you ever spoke
If you could lie
What else did you do
Then for you to not answer my text
I bet you answer Mitch
That guy that you sext
Funny that he texted me too
i told him to fuck off
like i would have ever done that to you
then to ignore me
how disrespectful and rude
like i said before
i would never do that to you
the person i thought you were
would have at least said something back
but if i really step out
i can see the knowledge you lack
hopefully one day you'll see
you'll really look back
compare what you thought vs. reality
maybe I'll get a call
I'm always willing to talk
don't get stuck obsessed with the way you want to be
its like sitting at a red light that says go and looks green
one day
you will realize you were completely wrong
or you will sit there forever
which is forever to long