I tend to wonder what the people the people I care about think of me. I'm self conscious, impatient, and moody. I say things I shouldn't, and I try to laugh my problems off. I try to put on a profile to the public that I'm doing great, and that my life is great. In truth I am scared to death to be alone. I'm scared of rejection, and I'm afraid of trying and never succeeding.
I have goals that some say are unreachable for me. I want to complete 6 years of college and get a masters in forensic pysch. At that time I hope to get married, have kids, own a house and grow old with my family. I hope to one day look out on a beautiful beach with my feet in the sand, and know that I am truly satisfied. I want to be educated in every way. When people ask me questions, I want to have an answer. I want people to look to me for guidance, as well as help. I don't want to be perfect, but I want people to think I'm close.
Its scary to think I actually have no idea at all where I will end up in life. What I do know, is that I will never ever give up. I will strive for my goals even when they seem the farthest away, and I'll never let anything take control of the person I am.
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